Always the one
Chasing shadows
Always the one
Hidden
Always the one
With knots in spots
Under my ribs,
All in my lungs
Breathing in tight
Pain in and out
Human so I fall
Unclear sight.
Without all of You
All of me has gone
Without all the light
The Dark would swallow me up
Standing in doorways,
Letting wind keep me shut
Falling in circles
Creating much
Much ache in all sides
Trying to jump out my Skin
Into You
Into You
Leave myself to get to
You
Leaving remnants of her,
Scaring away the tendencies.
Her was I
We were split
I came to Myself in the dark
Saw the opening in the sky
My arms outstretched, my fingertips
Aching
I couldn’t see Myself
The clouds were so dense
I couldn’t free Myself
I needed You
She remembers finding herself
Somewhere
Lines through skin that deepen ;
Conquering
Tops of trees, hands in between,
Silence.
But she sought just enough
Tread in deep mud ; Seeking
Out truth, hands, embrace.
Mind to the soul, tethered like rope.
Waves, waves dipping under her.
Calm , calm until breaking.
She found herself; unrelentless.
Waves around the bend
Coursing faster as I walk
Speeding up along the walls
Approaching quickly; see me crawl
Open doors, open halls
Still can’t hear me from the fall
Twisting me up into knots
And I try
To pull and pull
To stretch them out
To find the release within myself
But then there’s you
Jumping lines behind my eyes
And I’m gone
..Gone
I’m ash
Starry eyed
You are the water
Underneath my feet
The wind, fire, soul
Enveloping me
Used to see only red
In between and in my head
Used to count every breath
..But no more
Climbed too far
Climbed too hard
Found myself inside your heart
Found myself among the stars
Can you see the glow beneath my skin, love?
Do you read the words that rest on my tongue?
My flesh feels transparent around you;
Like your skin always resting on mine.
I feel the fire inside me,
burning the nerves underneath my skin
I only yearn for the breath of you;
Just to rest my eyes upon yours.
But i always lose myself in the deep wide dark
The dark residing inside.
It has solid arms, smothering me under the weight of it
But i close my eyes and those arms are yours.
Those arms are on my waist, on my thighs, on my face
They hold on to the sides of me,
Releasing hidden energy
How are you real?
I open my eyes, but the world is my dream.
You are my hope, don’t you see?
Can’t you see the holes covering me?
Can’t you see that the gold shining through,
Is because of you?
(For those lovers)
You are red-primary color
I am hidden-underneath you
There is sand and blue behind you
Or is that just the ocean?
Sinking sinking sinking
Where’d you go?
You are red-a constant fire
You are here
You are gone
Are you nowhere?
I thought you were the ocean as i was enveloped beneath you
I thought i was broken, when your breath let out the fire
But you are not the ocean
You are not even fire
I am not nowhere
I am everywhere
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